𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝑰 𝑭𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝑴𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝑨𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏: 𝑨 𝑱𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒆𝒚 𝑻𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝑩𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒕, 𝑨𝑰 𝑶𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒎, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈

With AI taking over all the spaces and making people stop thinking for themselves, I can’t help but wonder — is anything even worth it? I have stared at a blank page for a long time without finding the right thing to write or to learn.

The problem with wanting to be perfect in everything and having as many hobbies as possible is that I feel wasted. All my potential has gone to the ground while I have been walking all over it for so many days, weeks, months, and years. And then I wonder — what have I done? It seems like I have been in the same place for quite some time. I see some memories like a movie in an old black-and-white cinema. I don’t remember things in detail like I used to, but I try to focus on the small things in everyday life that we sometimes forget we do.

Every challenge, every disappointment, every bad situation — and I’ve had quite a few of those lately — changed me. But they also gave me a gift I didn’t have before.

I finished my Master’s degree and overcame procrastination. Even if it’s something I don’t really want or need, I became known for my astrology knowledge. That brought up quite a bit of trauma… but I learned not to care. Up until now, I’ve kept the promise not to let others’ opinions affect me.

And after that — when life understood I could not be offended by others shaming my knowledge — it gave me another challenge. And as soon as I got used to that one, another came. Then another. And then I understood: my love for knowledge and for understanding myself and others made me see the world of psychology on a deep, professional level.

So I have learned to forgive, but not forget.

Life will always give us challenges. But instead of focusing on what I could have done, and weeping for the person that I should have been, I am taking a step back — and seeing the person I have become.

And maybe… if I embrace who I am, I will become the one I always wanted to — but entirely better.